It’s Wednesday! And that means it’s time for another chapter of Seasons of a Mother’s Heart here at Mama’s!
I’m so thrilled that y’all are enjoying this study as much as I am. Your emails and comments have shown me that there is such a need for encouragement among mothers in the homeschooling community.
I couldn’t be more excited to study right along with you!
So let’s get started on Chapter 2 – Changing My Will.
Disclaimer: This chapter is a very personal one for me. I hope my honesty will be helpful and not a hindrance.
Changing My Will as a Homeschooling Mother
I mentioned on my Facebook page that this was by far the most read chapter of my book. Why?
Because I have had so much trouble with changing my will as a homeschool mama.
While God has changed and grown me in so many areas, there are still a few aspects of my will that need to bend to His.
And that is hard.
I occasionally think that I’m entitled to time alone, or 2 minutes alone in the bathroom, or a good night’s rest (when my youngest is 4!!). But the reality is that I’m not entitled to any of those things if I’m truly devoted to my husband, my children, and my home.
The Lord has shown me – yet again – that if I will pour myself into these children He’s blessed me with, He will give me all of the strength and rest that I need. Even if that means getting up in the night with kiddos who have bad dreams again or growing pains.
He will give me what I need if I can just get past myself.
How I Want My Children to Remember Me
I often think about how I want my children to remember me when they are grown and no longer under my constant care.
Will they think I was loving and their biggest cheerleader?
Will they think I always made time for them? To look them in the eyes as they told me a story or talked about their favorite topic?
Will they know that I am so unbelievably grateful to be their mother? Have I told them that enough?
Or will they think I was snappy and had a harsh tongue I couldn’t control?
Will they remember me as being irritable, annoyed, and frustrated by them?
This quote from Sally Clarkson stops me dead in my tracks every time I read it. In this portion of the chapter, Sally is describing giving up her beloved newsletter to be more fully present with her children. To say I can relate is the understatement of the year.
Her words about her oldest daughter are sobering to me:
Was I going to have the time to touch her heart for the Lord, to share secrets over mugs of hot tea, to discuss spiritual lessons learned and life decisions to be made? Would I walk by her side through that room of youth and escort her through the door into adulthood, or would I be just an occasional companion as she walked it mostly by herself? (Clarkson 47)
In order to not be only an occasional companion to my children, I must be fully present.
In order for my children to remember me as a loving mother, one who loves them dearly and enjoys them, I must be fully present.
I must be present physically and mentally each day.
This section prompted this question:
♥ What one practical step can I make today that will show my children I am thrilled to be at home with them? I often tell them I love being at home with them, but what can I do to show them?
Just the word makes me cringe just a bit.
We’re so comfortable here in America that we don’t want to sacrifice anything – our time, money, effort, energy, possessions.
Sacrifice is a foreign concept for most of us, yet it shouldn’t be because we have the perfect example of sacrifice set before us in Jesus.
Is it just me, or did anyone else find some comfort and encouragement just reading that homeschooling our children is an enormous sacrifice?
I re-read this section a couple of times, just for that validation. I think we all need that from time to time.
Thankfully, I have a husband who often acknowledges this homeschooling life is a sacrifice for me. That’s like salve to my soul each time he says it!
Yes, even on those occasions when I’m feeling entitled, I am comforted by this concept:
To me, though, it is a small sacrifice if by it I may send my children into the next generation bursting with spiritual life, ready to change the world for Christ? (Clarkson 51)
Lord, help me to see the big picture through spiritual eyes.
Journaling and Prayer
During this Seasons of a Mother’s Heart study with all of you, I’m journaling and praying as I read through each chapter.
As I read through the ‘Thoughts on the Living Word’ section (page 53), I recorded a few of those questions/tasks in my journal.
♥ I prayed for the Lord to change my heart on those days that I don’t want to sacrifice. I also prayed for him to give me spiritual eyes to see the big picture in raising and discipling these precious children He’s given me.
♥ I prayed for God to give me contentment and fulfillment in His perfect way – not in the ways that I think are right.
♥ I was reminded that discovering God’s Will each day involves: daily prayer, daily reflection on His Word, daily obedience.
♥ One of the scripture readings is John 15:22-23. I made a list of what it looks like for me to lay down my life for my friends (children).
What About You?
How did the Lord speak to you this week as you read through Chapter 2 of Seasons of a Mother’s Heart?
Did the Lord convict you of anything?
Did God affirm your efforts and give you insight?
Did He speak to you through His Word?
Please leave your comments below. I would love to hear your thoughts on Chapter 2!
I’m so thrilled you’re reading along with me!